im a big fat lazy brat~~~

sy sgt mls!!!

today..im not productive at all!demmit....

there's a lot of things need to do before ramadan

1. jual buku2 rujukan
2. setelkan roadtax
3. vakum umah this week
4. clean-up gardens..bersihkan daun2 kering
5. ironing clothes
6. studi solat tarawikh..nk jemaah kt umah
7. prepare menu for buka puasa
8. apply jobs
9. jahit baju kurung arissa
10.buat cili mesin-3 days cook without chili-tomyam,kari,singgang

and the list is never ending....

and yet today..i did nothing...except do laundry....

eventhough im a housewife..if i do not settle things today..i can do tomorrow...and tomorrow..and tomorrow..as long as the tomorrow n i never dies.....but i hate delaying the jobs..i hate being lazy..i hate being not productive!i hate myself so much...

but then again...i dun think i wanna do anything after this until end of this day  =p

dem big fat lazy brat~~

THE PRECIOUS CARDs part 1-life isn't that easy...

After berbulan x g umah sister nun jauh di gombak..akhirnye berpijak jualah ke rumahnye arini...dan after bertahun2 menyimpan buku2 kt umahnye...akhirnye setel clearkn jualah arini..em byk mission dh accomplished ni...

Anyway...this sister give me a lot of inspiration,motivation and gratefulness(wujud ke perkataan ni..hehe)...die bersuami..tp spt ibu tunggal....gaji kurang dr seribu...tp kne tanggung mkn minum,perubatan,duit myk,public transport n semua keperluan ank dan umah..

tiap pg pas siap2 nk pegi keje..galas handbag..galas beg anak..dukung anak (ank die dh bleh jalan..tp asek nk dukung je sbb mnja la katakan)...berjalan la kaki ke umah pengasuh...jaraknye umpama the curve g one utama gune jln shortcut....dh anta anak..g jalan ke stesen bas,tgu bas nk g keje.....pas kol 5,tgu bas unt balik umah plak....smpi umah pengasuh..tgu husben amek..klo xde (sllnye xde)..jalan la kaki balik umah....pastu uruskan umah..msk,basuh baju,sidai kain,lipat kain..uruskan ank....anknye plak ade elergik n mslh lain..kene tanggung perubatan n kne bli susu mahal...asek kne berulang masuk hospital sbb asma agk kritikal..all she did by herself..she's even jual mcm2 bnde to earn extra income...ade lesen and hv 2 cars...tp satu pn husben die xkc bawak..padahal satu kete tu,my sister paid until habis loan..

and today..she said..she is struggling to sell corset and kain baju raya to buy a car for herself....and i know when have a car..higher expenses..because u need to pay car loan,petrol,tol,maintainance service n many2 more!me myself pn mmg more than 1/3 of salary kt kete jek...but she's very motivated..she said...'xpe..insyaAllah adela rezeki tu nk byr semua....'..and she said there's 1 day,she's only hv rm2...ckp unt tmbg bs je...dunno how to buy food for her son...but suddenly ade sorg mbe die tetibe kc duit...nk byr duit utang bju....

yg penting die kene rajin cari  duit..pastu klo ade kemampuan tolong org len..insyaAllah ble ssh..ade org nk tlg balik...tabahnye my sister ni...and i know im not as strong as her...and i am very2 grateful with my life...life isn't that easy....my hubby struggling to find money....but me..just stay at home...my degree just kept in a box in storeroom (rs cm diri ni sm cm my sister's husben jek)...tp langit xsll cerah...skrg ni cm sng sket..mkn pakai ckp.....so skrg ni kenela rajin...menyediakan payung sblm hujan....ye..sy msti berusaha cari duit tolong hubby!!BERUSAHA!!!CAYOKK!!(dr dlu kte nk tlg...tp xtlg2 pn..tlg sshkn lg ade)

em baru2 ni adela rajin mngemas kad2 unt diletakkan dlm album (dpt idea ni dr mama erin)...so jmpela kad ni..rsnye the only card from my hubby...hubby i ni romantik sbnrnye...tp care romantik die xkc byk kad..die show love je trus.n klo adiah..adiah besa2 jek..(hehe cyg awk)...but ade satu kali ni before ktorg kawen..he gave me a small adiah n a small card....so sweet...

'aku terima nikahnye...'

small gift bt still the beri2 ws expensive..

Dear syg....

thank you for everything....
u're not only giving me love...but also materials (sy bkn materialistik..btll..xtipu..)..and give me everything u could offer...life isn't that easy...but u always make it easier  for me....i know how hard and how difficult u have to work in order to give me the most comfort life with u...i dun want to be only parasites...i really3 want to live simbiosis wit u....(bt right now i hv no idea what im suppose to do..)...and again and it wont last...i luv u so much.....

ni gmba2 kite kt mrsm dulu..satu kelas..satu homeroom...tp penah ckp skali jek....xsangke pstu leh jadik suami isteri lak...

homeroom zanariah..comot je sy dulu2(skrg pon)..sbb tu syg xmau tego kot..

my precious love!!!