Thursday, March 31, 2011

syg...make a baby in my belly...

huhu...juz now i received sms from my close fren..

'nabila nak dpt adik lg'....

xlame pastu..ade lg strange no sms, she is my fren at kmpung gak...said this is her new no..skrg dlm pntang kt kmpung unt ank kedua...

OMG..

ape sume ni..berturut2 sms nk kctau dpt ank baru...

pastu bukak fb..a few frens post sal tgh suffer morning sickness...

pastu got a call from a fren..also mention about her morning sickness.

demmit...huhu....

i miss the moment of having a baby in my belly...

syg..make a baby in my belly!

        *definitely not mine.. i wish..*

Sunday, March 27, 2011

dead fish..dead me...



las nite...another guppy was dying....bile die renang kepala ke ats,ekor bawah..pastu jatuh ke dasar akuarium..mengiring..ulang2 die jatuh jugak...i was freak out...cpt2 kuarkan die..letak garam..kc baby shrimp as emergency energy..klo bleh kc CPR, mmg dh kc kt die...harap sgt die terus hidup...

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in my tots, bela ikan ni sng je..i dun really like fish bt i have a few general knowledge bout fish

1. jgn kc byk sgt mknn kt ikan..kc mkn 2 kali sehari pn dh ckp
2. ikn xmakan 3 ari pn leh idup
3. klo gune tap water..kne letak antiklorin..

klo nk iktkn my tot ni,sng je nk jg ikan...but over last 1 month, i learnt it's not as easy as i tot....walopon kc mkn ikan 4kali sehari sbnrnye xckp sbb nt ikan kurus...and xbleh kc byk sgt mknn nt leh mati jugak..pastu kne tkr air at least 2 times a week...tp xbleh tkr sume..nt ikan xbleh adapt..kne tkr 80% je....tp kne makesure air xkotor jugak...it seems like easy job but i dunno to determine all this...i really2 dunno..hw much is too much food...how few food that cn make it skinny...how much to change water to makesure the water is clean and make the fish adapt with new water...huhu...

las jan, my hubby bought 2 pairs of red gupp..(gud DNA tau)...me as a fulltime housewife had honored to take huge responsibility to take care of his beloved guppy when he was away...but sadly, when he came back..the guppy was died, the fry also gone and others were skinny...i know how hurt he felt, he put high hope to me...to live up his hobby...to take care of his guppy...to see the fry...im sooo sory syg..i didnt mean to hurt u..i didn't expect that i need to give 100% attention to them..i admit i didnt watch them as much as u did...ckp mase kc mkn...pastu cek dh beranak ke blum..buang taik every 2 days..and change water sekali..to pn half tank je..i tot that was good enuf...but it wasnt..the beautiful guppy and the fry died....i felt guilty..really bad....i want to appreciate and promise to do the best for the 2nd chance...

this time around, i did give 100% attention to the fish....the guppy is my priority over arissa and other things in house...i give gud and various food..sometime give flakes,sometimes multivit..sometime cacing..2times a day give baby shrimp...i clean taik2 everyday...change 80% water in tank every 2-4 days...watch them most of the time...chat with them...celik2 mate trus tgk ikan...kdg2 xbreakfast pn..i give all my hearts...

unfortunately las wed, i lost 1 ribbon guppy..and las nite....one was dying..i pray that she could survive..pas solat..mngs2 berdoa die terus hidup...this is the first time i pray for animal...btpe dasatnye...myb half of the action because of i dun want to hurt my hubby again..and half of it because of my pride..it should be an easy job..i always scold my niece because she is very pathetic when to do easy math questions, but i am the one who is pathetic...why the guppy died one by one?is it too much of food?too frequent changing water?is it because of infection?is it because she miss my hubby so much? (logik ke? if it's true..jelesla sy..mne bleh rindu syg sy lebih2)....my life was miserable las nite..ngs2 smpai tertdo..kol 5 pg tgk2 the guppy and a snail died....i hope that she also pray for me because i was being so nice to her and pray hard for her to live....i felt like giving up....i felt like my hubby shouldnt rear guppy anymore..he shouldnt depend on his pathetic wife...

but today i realized that i shouldnt give up..shouldnt die like the fish....i should learn and improve..should give more love...should prove that i can like fish...i can like anything..learn..learn..learn..huhu....i found this website about guppy...
http://english.myguppy.net/forumdisplay.php?fid=5&page=1
a lot of other website..i need to study study study...rs nk je beli pH parameter ngn antiklorin..huhu...

dear guppy,

please stay strong..u will get the best of me..pleaseee...